It\u2019s the first time I\u2019ve lost someone very close to me. I feel extremely grateful to have had her presence in my life for so long.<\/p>\n
There\u2019s also an empty space where her \u2018soul signature\u2019 used to be.<\/p>\n
For most of my life, I learned how to shove my emotions somewhere that\u00a0didn\u2019t need to be felt. Although I had a warm, happy upbringing, it was heavily focused on the practical, and results of getting things done.<\/p>\n
I learned to appreciate how my Gran\u2019s values of hard work, independence, and \u2018no-nonsense\u2019 got passed down to me.<\/p>\n
There was no guilt, or shame being thrown around. Instead, there were simple rules of right and wrong \u2013 do your best, be nice, respectful, and do what your parents tell you!<\/p>\n
Missing Emotions<\/h4>\n
What was missing in my childhood was emotion. \u00a0Anger, and deep sadness I never got close to growing up. Happy was there, but that immense feeling of joy stayed under the radar.<\/p>\n
I got so good\u00a0at tucking away my emotions that when anything happened (failing an exam, not getting what I applied for, etc.), I could pretty easily \u201caccept what is\u201d from a sensible perspective, and simply move on.<\/p>\n
Today, I am much more tuned into my emotions because I learned to connect to my soul. Your emotions are a vibration that can be used as a guide for your soul\u2019s truth. Unfortunately, many face trauma, stress, or drama that creates unresolved emotions that can block your soul growth.<\/p>\n
By practicing stillness every morning where I connect with my divine self (either through a song, journaling, or meditative communication), I can move away from my dominant thinking\/doing side over to feeling\/being.<\/p>\n
Once I consciously slow down and sink into the deeper quiet part of me, I can tap into the sadness around the loss of my Gran. Our real emotions don\u2019t leave us \u2013 we take them along as part of our developing soul.<\/p>\n
Early Soul Stories<\/h4>\n
My Grandpa was a physician \u2013 a man of science my Gran described as a \u201ccommon sense kind of fellow\u201d, and certainly not a believer of anything supernatural.<\/p>\n
One of my earliest \u2018soul stories\u2019 was the time my Grandpa awoke and saw \u201cas clear as day\u201d a woman with a long braid standing over his son in his crib.<\/p>\n
The servants had seen this woman in their old government-owned home in British Guyana. Up until that moment, my grandpa assumed\u00a0their sightings were just an \u201cold wives tale\u201d \u2013 not anymore.<\/p>\n
Their local pastor was called in to bless the\u00a0home, and this mysterious woman was never seen again.<\/p>\n
A mother who previously lived in the home had taken her life after her young son had died from an insect bite.<\/p>\n
For some reason, none of this story scared me. I was intrigued wanting to understand.<\/p>\n
Some people transition, and don\u2019t know to go to the light. They are so attached to this material plane from some kind trauma that some may not realize they have died.<\/p>\n
All it usually takes is a gentle nudging to let them know not to be afraid, they won\u2019t be judged, and to go towards the light.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s important to know you have an entire soul ascension career ahead of you on the other side that\u2019s part of a Great Plan. \u00a0How you travel will be determined by the experiences you create, decisions you make, and the impact you have on others.<\/p>\n
A Little Surprise<\/h4>\n
My Gran\u2019s younger brother lost his life at 22 during WW2, but it wasn\u2019t until after she died that I needed details for her funeral.<\/p>\n
Her father\u2019s full name? I didn\u2019t know it was Arthur Alexander Amory. I discovered her brother\u2019s name was Richard Gore Amory. I got a nudge to google him.<\/p>\n
I knew he was buried in Cambridge, England, but was surprised to find him online with details of his death:<\/p>\n
\u201cTook off 23:55 20 July 1944 from Grimsby to bomb railway facilities in tactical support of the Normandy Battle Area. Homebound emerged from low cloud and crashed 03:30 21 July 1944 at Aylesby 6 miles W of Cleethorpes in Lincolnshire.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n As I\u2019m writing this, I noticed the handwriting on the photo reads \u201cTo my loving sister\u201d. Wow. Richard joined the Royal Air Force (without telling my great-grandmother).<\/p>\n He was stuck in the U.S. trying to get home to British Guyana.<\/p>\n Friends from University in England had enlisted, and he wanted to help.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n My Gran told me how her mother had an upsetting dream of seeing her son working at a desk, and then collapsing.<\/p>\n Later she was informed upon his death that he had become a pilot and flight navigator.<\/p>\n He was apparently found slumped over his desk on a map after his plane was shot down.<\/p>\n Stories like these planted seeds of me believing in \u201csomething more\u201d early on.<\/p>\n Gran was our family Matriarch with 17 grandchildren, and 38 \u201cGreats\u201d as she called them.<\/p>\n She was the only one in my family who believed in these unexplainable spiritual occurrences.<\/p>\n My Gran\u2019s generation seemed to have more faith in unknown mysteries despite the lack of knowledge.<\/p>\n I want you to have faith in something bigger and understand your own soul path to elevate the quality of your life. Your mental and emotional health, relationships, and a sense of meaning and purpose are important for your soul!<\/p>\n It really starts with a genuine curiosity in \u201cwho AM I\u201d?<\/p>\n Are you a \u201cmind, body and spirit\u201d or a \u201cmind, body and soul\u201d? I used to think the spirit and soul were one and the same. What\u2019s\u00a0the difference?<\/p>\n The soul is like a container you carry collecting all the experiences of spiritual value (truth, beauty, and goodness) that will move with you into the afterlife.<\/p>\n Your soul is safeguarded by an angel or seraphim whose role is to help you gain as much soul growth through your experiences here as possible. \u00a0Your guardian seraphim travel and remain with you in the afterlife.<\/p>\n I know my Gran\u2019s soul carried a great deal value because of the life she lived. Your soul grows with practices of patience, compassion, kindness, empathy, understanding, generosity, nonjudgment \u2013 qualities she lived, often with a great sense of humour!<\/p>\n There\u2019s a \u201cthinning of the veil\u201d as you approach the end of your life, which results in some common experiences.<\/p>\n Towards the end of my Gran\u2019s life, she had more contact with my grandfather and would tell me how often she would feel his presence.<\/p>\n She had a vivid dream for the first time of her mother.<\/p>\n \u201cRight before dying, many people experience vivid and meaningful dreams and visions, according to accounts across cultures and throughout history.\u201d ~Scientific American, Nov. 2014<\/p><\/blockquote>\n She also kept seeing \u201cwispy transparent material that would move across her drapes\u201d. She would grab this material that also showed up on her clothes, roll it up into a tiny ball and feel it in her hands.<\/p>\n Finally, she would increasingly become awakened in the middle of the night. A feeling of panic could sweep over her as she described children in danger of drowning or being trapped she was seeing in her room.<\/p>\n It\u2019s common to have dementia as we age, but I suspect there\u2019s much more going on as you approach death than simply your mind deteriorating. We know how much we carry in our subconscious minds that may be surfacing with the veil thinning.<\/p>\n I believe as you get closer to the other side you can access other sensory capacities that may cause you to see in other ways, but being on the material side it appears like you are losing your \u201cwhole mind\u201d when it\u2019s just your material mind losing its capacity.<\/p>\n On the other side, you will have a new range of senses to experience the afterlife. Besides our 5 physical senses, we have the capacity to develop our 5 psychic senses or \u201cclair senses\u201d that\u2019s operating closer to the other side.<\/p>\n For example, people who are clairvoyant can see what you and I don\u2019t have the capacity to see, and they are NOT hallucinating.<\/p>\n Clairaudience is the ability to hear from spiritual personalities and is often how we receive insights and creative inspiration.<\/p>\n You also have what\u2019s called a developing \u201cmorontial mind\u201d as you progress spiritually. Morontia\u00a0is a term meaning a vast level intervening between the material and spiritual.<\/p>\n \u201cIn the physical life, mortals may be outwardly beautiful though inwardly unlovely; in the morontia life, and increasingly on its higher levels, the personality form will vary directly in accordance with the nature of the inner person.\u201d ~Nordan Symposia<\/p><\/blockquote>\n What is real, and what is an illusion is difficult to discern, and I suspect it\u2019s a little of both happening \u2013 \u00a0shades of grey!<\/p>\n People often report getting a \u2018sign\u2019 of a past loved one. It may be a bird, a feather, even a dime. I had swallows show up building nests in my front alcove. \u00a0One day I just began thinking of a beloved aunt who passed away and connected her to the swallows who I could hear in my office.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n Later I discovered a locket she had given me was engraved with a swallow.<\/p>\n Our loved ones can communicate with other light beings to help give us signs using connections we\u2019ve made in our minds.<\/p>\n They essentially use our mind\u2019s \u2018library\u2019 \u2013 what we believe, think, understand to help communicate with us.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n I posted a message about my Gran that ended with \u201cgoodbye for now\u00a0until we meet again<\/em>.\u201d A friend saw my post and promptly began making a bracelet that used black, white, and grey beads.<\/p>\n When she came to my door, she explained that the beads read \u201cuntil we meet again<\/em>\u201d in morse code. I was SO moved by her expression of thoughtfulness!!<\/p>\n I immediately put it on, and realized I was wearing a top with the EXACT same 3 colours \u2013 black, white and grey! I often talk about things not being \u2018black and white\u2019 where the different one is seen as the enemy in the practice of living judgment-free.<\/p>\n There\u2019s so much grey to sort out among people\u2019s perspectives especially in the spiritual arena when it comes to beliefs!<\/p>\n
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<\/a><\/p>\nA Special Lady to Many<\/h4>\n
Your Soul Versus Your Spirit<\/h4>\n
Nearing the Time of Transition<\/h4>\n
The Other Side<\/h4>\n
Signs and Synchronicities<\/h4>\n
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